Buttercups in Bloom

Actions. Actions can make you feel as though your soul has been wrapped in warm, weighted blanket. Actions can gently begin to stitch the woundedness within your heart back together so that your heart beats a bit stronger. Actions can eradicate the feelings of timidity and replace it with a bold, courageous stance. Actions can take an ordinary day and transform it into moments of deep laughter and bring complete strangers together Simple actions have the power to change and move the soul. The action of love that came in the form of gift certificates when I was barely able to hold my head up because my heart was breaking in a million pieces in the reality that I was deeply missing Emma on Christmas Eve brought tears streaming down my face.  My sweet congregation had no idea at the time that we weren't just going to St. Louis for a week, but that I would be staying there until Emma was well enough to come home.  The gift of generosity gave us the ability to purchase items

One day has turned into two. Two has given way to a week. A week has transformed into two weeks. In some ways it seems odd and yet it is all so familiar.  It's odd in that we are here; here without the love, safety, and support of our team members from McCallum.  It's familiar in that we are here; here on the mountain in the love and safety of our breathtaking community.  The days are turning into weeks and rising of the sun brings thankfulness for another day and each night brings a sliver of doubt that something will lead Emma back to a place of unworthiness, insecurity and to a place where darkness reigns in her being. This life of binge eating isn't about dieting. It is not about restricting the foods that you love {the candy bars, ice cream or cookies} or merely focusing on healthy food.  This new life that we are leaning in to ask us set down judgement about what we or someone else has